“Shadow Behind Eclipse” (for John Ashbery) [by Anne Waldman]

 

                                     for John Ashbery

When he died, a temperature went down

Trees in the sky above Flatirons, tremor there

Oh didn’t, then did     See?

We were driving in the canyon moons ago

       when he had said then “closing in”

Fool for this love

He was our drumming ritual if you were a

       a berserker

       and willed by constellations

He was our prize for being born

This world through school time, through bliss

through saltiness in the question

Can gentlemen do without?

Never retreat from scrutiny

        or miss the enemy, burnt leaf smell like resin

He was our fear of a sentence half-dreamed

         if we couldn't seize the whole

He was our vessel

         cave and boot

         train ride to the province

         meandering by river

Panic to be left out of this

Landscape, a picnic

Whole tome memorized, many colors

He was our vanguard of non-self,

         scent and doubt

Of deep carriage into the unknown

What do you know of it

        if you know him not?

When he did laugh he did and muse

That was a blue eye special

He was putting things

     next to one another

    you too somehow included

They  you   it — things — didn't have to bond

     but in poetry happen

And now listen to his voice with

     eyes gone wild for flowers

Scratchy reel to reel, 1966

Sacred fury of a primordial world

Half mannish garb on the sentence

     a profile in the hallway

     across all crystal neuro pathways

Mirror, mirror?

Up to nature and we had a glimpse

He was our respite,

Midnight excursions off limits

Sometimes a candle at the brain wondering “fallen star”

What rhymed with it?

“Espoir”, hope?

Blood heart, held supine

He was our cosmography in a better world

       you could count on, relief, release

 

— 2016; reprinted from the Brooklyn Rail