“Modern Love”: XX [by George Meredith]

# 20

I am not of those miserable males

Who sniff at vice, and, daring not to snap,

Do therefore hope for heaven. I take the hap

Of all my deeds. The wind that fills my sails,

Propels; but I am helmsman. Am I wrecked,

I know the devil has sufficient weight

To bear: I lay it not on him, or fate.

Besides, he's damned. That man I do suspect

A coward, who would burden the poor deuce
With what ensues from his own slipperiness.

I have just found a wanton-scented tress
In an old desk, dusty for lack of use.

Of days and nights it is demonstrative,

That, like some aged star, gleam luridly.

If for those times I must ask charity,

Have I not any charity to give?

— George Meredith